December

New month. And, finally, relief..

Yesterday i hit rock-bottom. The stress that had been building up during the last couple of weeks finally caught up with me and i suddenly started to wonder, in a rather depressing manner, what the point of life is. We're born and before we know it our education has already begun. I'm not referring to learning to speak or walk, rather the more demanding disciplines of history, math, literature. And that's okay, to some extent. Or it is until you realise that you never stop, that you study hard to get into a good school so you can study harder and get into a good university where you'll study even harder so you can get a good job and earn a lot of money so you'll actually have a chance at surviving. It shouldn't be that hard. But we live in a society where it's inevitable if not impossible to be anything other than materialistic. Anyway, that was my down. It also included my epiphany of even death being incapable of solving the uselessness of lives in such a society. Nice thoughts, filled me with joy.

But now, as if by magic, i'm feeling better. My doubts about school are one huge step closer to being resolved, exams are over for now, i finally spoke with my mother about something i'd been trying to postpone and the consequences were more than i could have dreamed of, i skated a little after lunch and realised the pain in my knee has been absent for long enough that i can't even remember the last time it was sore.

Oh, and the smell of pancakes is wafting from the kitchen. At this moment it seems life can't get much better. So here's to everyone going through a rough patch. For all you now you could wake up tomorrow and be relieved of all your miseries, even for an hour. That's a lot. Talk about first-world problems.

Take care, xx

^ My boy acting silly :P